Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Tidbit Tuesday

"The nannies are taking good care of Meaza, and as a result she is showing improvement physically and mentally."
"Melese sometimes gets upset when someone leaves his side after playing with him for a while."

Just in case anyone was wondering if I am still in the "Happy Idiot" stage... Not so much. Now it is the anxious longing stage. I long for these children. I miss them. I want them home. I am worried about them. I need to be with them. I'd like them to be past this next, big, transition. I'd like to be helping them grieve. I'd like to be moving forward together. I'd like for their healing to begin.

I'd like to take them in my arms.

I'd like to bring them home.

29 comments:

  1. Any idea about travel? I had hoped you'd be there the first of August ;). Hoping your BCs and travel come quickly!

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  2. I will never tire of the beautiful ballerina photo. I cannot imagine your state of mind at this point. I have always heard that this is the most difficult part and I believe it totally.

    Hang on. You are almost there.

    Wish my words were dollars and I would write and write until you could fly over there today and stay until the day you bring them home.

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  3. I remember acutely feeling this way while waiting to bring Sam home. It was almost unbearable. I remember (a) being surprised that our baby was so young (I was expecting an older baby) and (b) being surprised by what he had endured in his little life. In my head I kept repeating "I need to be with him. I need to grow him." and when people would ask how I was, I'd say "I need to grow my baby" and, of course, they would look at me like I was NUTS! :).
    But, I get it. we all do. You need to grow those babies!!! (by that I mean physically, emotionally, etc)
    soon! it will come soon...
    love
    becca

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  4. Anxiously waiting to know when you are going to get these precious beings...

    Cindy

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  5. I hope it is soon soon soon. Thinking of you and your sweet children. I believe you are in the hardest part of this journey, at least it would be for me. I'm sure it varies for each person. Thanks for your honesty, as always. You are amazing.

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  6. me, too, with the anxiously waiting! When, when?? *I* am dying for you to go and get these little ones, so I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Thinking of you!

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  7. It is the most surreal and unnatural thing to not be with your children during this wait- you long to comfort, hold and simply love and yet you wait! Hang in there, they will be in your arms soon.

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  8. Hope those sweeties are in your arms very soon!

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  9. Meaza.... she stops me every time I see her face. There's so much, so much. She will heal with you.

    Melese, he will heal too, but you'll have to as well from carrying that child around. He's so lusciously plump.

    It has to be soon, right?

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  10. I want you to bring them home too!!!! They need their leopard print chairs for Christ's sake!!!!

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  11. This part of the wait is nearly impossible to bear. Hoping so much you have your travel dates soon so there's an end in sight! Hugs from NM.

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  12. I'm waiting to exhale for you, knowing you and your sweet little ones are together.

    xoxo

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  13. Hope the anxious waiting stage goes into the exhilerated-finally-together stage soon!

    xo

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  14. I wish more than anything that you were all together right now. I keep checking in to see when you are leaving. I don't want you to have to wait any longer. You need your children and they need their mommy and daddy. Infinite amounts of love to you and to M & m. Hoping it will be soon. Also hoping that you don't injure yourself via mass consumption of stress relieving hot tamales.

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  15. I'd like you to bring them home too.

    I would like that very much indeed.

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  16. oh I want those things for you too! And for me...I want to hold Melese...see those thighs in person and I feel like Meaza is just on the verge of a smile...I want to see that smile! We're all in the longing period with you!

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  17. That was the hardest stage..I hated it..hope you have news of travel very soon!

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  18. My wish is for you to fly to them. Just that. Let that day come, for you. I also cannot wait to hear about your experience in Ethiopia although I know you will be busy with so much when you come home.

    Waiting and hoping for your arms to be full.

    Christine

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  19. I can't wait to see pictures of her with a relaxed smile... :)

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  20. Hope you get to travel soon- your little ones are so beautiful!!! This waiting to travel is very hard!


    Carolyn

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  21. You can tell by looking at the pictures how much they need you right now, too. It is so hard, isn't it?

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  22. For some reason I have a feeling you will be in Ethiopia on a certain anniversary...and then it will all make sense!
    Welcome to the wonderful world of Mommyland...you will never NOT worry again!!
    Can't wait to see you on Sunday!

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  23. ((hugs)) from one mama in wait to another (different waits but torture all the same)
    they are beautiful....do they keep getting cuter or is it just me??

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  24. My heart ACHED so much for R between referral and travel I thought I would die. I know how hard this is. Your children are beautiful.

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  25. This was the hardest part for me too. Thank goodness you are getting so many photos and updates, so that you can follow them just a little. Hang on you are very very close now.

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  26. The longing stage is so awesome...your heart is growing for what is to come in so many amazing ways. Can you almost smell them? Feel them in your arms? It will be such bliss - I can't wait for you!

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  27. this part was so impossible- knowing who he was and what he had been through- being scared that something might go wrong that would keep me even longer from seeing him- remember you have no control and submit to that, sending positive vibes your way.....

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